Tough

Today was tough.

I want to tell the whole world how much you suck right now.

You have gone silent.

That’s good.  That’s good.  I don’t need you right now.  I don’t.  I don’t need you ever again. I can live without your voice.  I can live without you being an active part of your children’s lives.  I can live without the hope of you ever returning.  I can live.

I need to muster the strength to do what needs to be done to get a divorce.  I can’t be tied to you anymore.

What did you expect?  To have sister wives?  I don’t think so.

You said you were confused.  I unconfused you.

Today was tough.  But I will be ok.  My children will be ok.  We will be ok.

Tomorrow is a new day.  New challenges, new joy.  Tomorrow will be better.

God tried to warn me.  “Ten thousand could surround someone that all believe the same thing and that one person can still make the choice to not believe the same”.  Ten thousand to one and the one still has a choice even with all the influence.  You made your choice.  I need to accept it and move on.

Whoever you are with is an idiot and quite frankly so are you for giving up such a good thing after chance after chance.

Good luck to you in your life.

I will be ok.  Tomorrow will be better.  Tomorrow has to be better, today was too hard.  I can’t do another day like today again.

I am baffled at the choice you made.  In shock.   but it’s over and I’m moving on.  God will help me move on.

Thank you Lord for strength.  For Your supernatural strength.  For wisdom and guidance.  Help to forgive again.   Help me to move on.  To let go.  To forget.  To find peace and joy and a new hope.  Bring me closer to You Lord.   Fulfill my every need.  Wrap Your strong arms around me.  Protect me.  Help me God.  Help me please.  Help me be a better person.  Show me love.  Show me You’re amazing love.  Give me more of a hunger for You.  Put a passion in my heart for more of you.  I love you Lord.  Amen

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