When you go through something traumatic or grief your emotions almost become bipolar.
One moment you are happy and everything little thing will be ok and the next you are sad beyond belief.
One moment you are focused and have a purpose and the next you don’t know what you are going to do with your life or how you are going to survive.
One moment you are forgiving and gracious to the persons and the next you hate them and have very serious anger issues.
One moment you are really hopeful things will work, the next you want a divorce.
One moment you are excited because he seems to be succeeding at showing his repentance and the next you are sorely disappointed because your expectations aren’t met.
It really is a roller coaster ride.