As I keep saying sometimes I want things to work out and sometimes I want to run away and just end it all.
I always remind my kids that if you don’t bug the bee the bee won’t bug you.
Yet for some reason at one point in their lives they get an irrational fear of the bee that isn’t caused by a sting, but they know that the bee can cause them pain. Suddenly they start screaming and running away from the bees.
It dawned on me. When you know something causes you pain you automatically stay away from it or change the way you act around it. A hot stove, you don’t touch. A street, you cross safely. A knife, you use wisely. A bee…you run away from.
Some things that cause pain, you automatically just run away from.
My relationship causes me intense pain.