I was mistaken. Today will be the first day I don’t talk to him.
It’s so hard not to call him just to talk, but I have to break myself from him. I have to fall out of love. I have to stop talking to him and do it without bitterness seeping in.
I can’t talk to him when he’s with someone else’s family Christmas day and has some other persons little girl on his lap. Yes I saw a pic of him with “her” family and some little girl wrapped around his neck. Yes his girlfriend face booked me, yes it was horrible and yes I am bigger than all that and blocked the nasty lady, yes she is a nasty person who also lied to try to hurt me on purpose.
I have to break this tie.
It’s really really hard, but I have to do it. Christmas and our quickly approaching anniversary is going to be unbearable if I don’t.
I now know why people have rebound flings. I feel as if it would help, but I won’t do it. I can’t do it, not that anyone would want someone with four kids and so much baggage. But I now understand.
I must break these ties. I am thankful for this blog and for my one friend who is there through it all to keep me accountable. It’s been nearly 6 hours without speaking to him, I can do this.