Break the Ties

I was mistaken.  Today will be the first day I don’t talk to him.

It’s so hard not to call him just to talk, but I have to break myself from him.  I have to fall out of love.  I have to stop talking to him and do it without bitterness seeping in.

I can’t talk to him when he’s with someone else’s family Christmas day and has some other persons little girl on his lap.  Yes I saw a pic of him with “her” family and some little girl wrapped around his neck.  Yes his girlfriend face booked me, yes it was horrible and yes I am bigger than all that and blocked the nasty lady, yes she is a nasty person who also lied to try to hurt me on purpose.

I have to break this tie.

It’s really really hard, but I have to do it.  Christmas and our quickly approaching anniversary is going to be unbearable if I don’t.

I now know why people have rebound flings.  I feel as if it would help, but I won’t do it.  I can’t do it, not that anyone would want someone with four kids and so much baggage.  But I now understand.

I must break these ties.  I am thankful for this blog and for my one friend who is there through it all to keep me accountable.  It’s been nearly 6 hours without speaking to him, I can do this.

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