I’m presuming it’s stress. The stress and wrapping my head around the idea of single-ness again. The stress of raising four children on my own, the chaos of school and daycare drop offs and working three days a week with swimming and dance in the evenings, errands, appointments. The pressure of making the decision of moving, finding a home that I can afford on my own, of moving my daughters school, registering 3 for school and getting her into the same school as 5, the pressure of finding childcare for baby, the crunch of getting financially stable to purchase a new vehicle, creating kids church every week, starting custody and access, divorce, budgeting..but mostly moving and school decisions are stressing me out the most…I’m thinking all this pressure has started to cause headaches…sudden ones that come quick and within an hour I have my head in the toilet vomiting from the pain. It is pretty horrible.
I need to lean on Jesus more. There are so many things I have to do alone now, no one to share these things with. I need to rely on Him. Give them to Him and get into His word more. That’s the only way I can relieve this stress, that and punch the heavy bag harder! That is fabulous. God is my only source of strength and can get rid of these migraines.
Jesus it used to annoy me so much when people would say “Jesus take the wheel” but …Jesus take the wheel! I need help with my life. I need help with decisions, with the little things, with the big things, with raising my children, with everything! God help me, provide for me, lead me, guide me and give me wisdom. Lord give me favor and blessings along the way. I thank you for blessing me, guiding me, and providing for me. You know my every need. I love you Father. Thank you for never leaving me nor forsaking me. You are my Rock and my everything. I love you. In Jesus name. amen.